Just ugh really.
I get it. When it comes down to it, for most people, I’m a rather shit friend. Disappearing for months/years and missing those all important events that reinforce the bond. Being familiar with all those ‘do you remember when’s. But it doesn’t mean I love them any less.
I know I’m over sensitive when it comes to rejection; I can has abandonment issues kk. But tis not all that difficult to just say ‘I’d rather we didn’t talk anymore’. I’d certainly prefer it to stewing over my potential status as unwanted person who just won’t take a hint. Certainly a worry considering how awful I can be at deciphering social cues.
Meh.
I shall bravely flounder on, banging my head against disinterest until it dissipates or bangs back.
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Feb 12
Huh. Social skills, my forte.
Life is good till it gets in the way
Understanding your wisdom
A game that we play
Multiple endings; chase a new day.
Not sure of your ending. the part you shall play.
this missunderstanding i fear is our shame.
Trying to flounder
thoughts cast assunder
i know not the issue
But hell. I'll miss you.
itsumo x
