note; lurking

Forums. I lurk. And i'm proud of it. No actually im not, i sit in the shadows avoiding notice and crying into my pink teddy bear at night because nobody likes me.

Viewpoints linking lurkage(?) to stalkers, 'creepy people' and heavy breathers exist, is it true?
Have i missed my calling? All these hours wasted playing video games and navel gazing could have been more productively directed at nerdfighting. I would be a ninjastalking nerd. Dressed in my inconspicuous closest/clean style of dressing they wouldnt notice me until i decided the time was right.

I intended something more for this blog. A half glimsed idea glimmered, pirhoetted and pop!

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Don't you just hate to loose a thought?
Drifting drifting, floating off
Drifting off they're seen a lot.
Like bubbles, but not?

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Visualizing other people when talking to self, defense mechanism?

As we grow there are certain learned facts. Talking to ourselves in the third person is a sign of mental illness.

How then to you subconsciously react to pondering issues in a detached fashion? Do you insert accepted variables to increase comfort?