If we ever meet again - katy perry.

Aka 'the one that got away'

*sings*

ahh, the nostalga.

All this money can't buy me a time machine.

Oh well, another life then.

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away.

The ago is awful far away. Acceptance. Sigh.

Relationship napalm.

Rihanna. Missed a few years of that. Chest infections suck for singing though.

"just gonna stand there and watch me burn"
yeah. just... why. i squeak it somewhere online in pure bemusement.

"and this tug of war you'll always win even when I'm right.
Cause you feed me fables from your head with violent words and empty threats
and its sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied"

but really. are you going to just stand there and watch me burn?

i'd like to see you hurt. to be fair. sadistic as that is

i once loved the way you lied.

becasue the pretty tale you span was better than reality.

"so mabea i'm a masochist."

Just...

Trying to find poetry from that era, while back now.

People are strange. And to love someone that deeply who pokes where tis squishy with a sharp stick tends to leave a scar.

This may be a little too emo for semi-public rambling.

Netday

Welcome to the return of the ramble!

few thousand things to do... including 2years of stuff that would have been on here. Meh, i'll get to it.


http://open.spotify.com/track/6UaRii9AH6Zss9xNMEQ2M9

Chest infection much? xD

Internet connectivity incoming,
prepare to be observed.
Are you eating congealed pasta or just being a nerd?
Warcraft, Skype and forum boards; How to cook or order hoes.
An ode to you i do compose, it may be lol or just asplode.

Energy - rope theory

Family can cause pain. Caution recommended.

I <3 Scotland

The internet is an appendage.

Where are the colony ships?

omg, two years of xkcd to catch upon  Also naruto, all new/undiscovered music. Sci fi films.. books.. omg nomnomnom xD.

Drool doesnt lie.

Warning, if i have not seen you lately a visit may be incoming.


"but you'll always be my hero... even though you've lost your mind."



Happy times x

Social

Just ugh really.

I get it. When it comes down to it, for most people, I’m a rather shit friend. Disappearing for months/years and missing those all important events that reinforce the bond. Being familiar with all those ‘do you remember when’s. But it doesn’t mean I love them any less.

I know I’m over sensitive when it comes to rejection; I can has abandonment issues kk. But tis not all that difficult to just say ‘I’d rather we didn’t talk anymore’. I’d certainly prefer it to stewing over my potential status as unwanted person who just won’t take a hint. Certainly a worry considering how awful I can be at deciphering social cues.
Meh.
I shall bravely flounder on, banging my head against disinterest until it dissipates or bangs back.


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Feb 12

Huh. Social skills, my forte.
Life is good till it gets in the way
Understanding your wisdom
A game that we play
Multiple endings; chase a new day.

Not sure of your ending. the part you shall play.
this missunderstanding i fear is our shame.

Trying to flounder
thoughts cast assunder
i know not the issue

But hell. I'll miss you.

itsumo x

Drift

"I want to live alone
because the greatest love is always ruined by the bickering,
the argument of living."

Really?

At once this resonates yet I don't wish to believe it as truth.
To live at such a distance as the 'argument of living' is not dealt with together then.. what is the point?

I would rather drift alone than only have the eddies [moved/disturbed/influenced]; to be together is to mingle the dust and blow [together/in concert/simultaneously]

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Feb 12

Within formless shifting seas of fate.

 I can be hard
I can be soft
I am formless seas
Shaped by froth
Shaped yet lost
not all
not most
Shaped yet lost
Waves sculpting
Seagulls aloft
For joy I create
Tangled thoughts, grasped
Stained and sculpted
Taking form from the lost strands of mist.
Shaped yet lost
not all
not most
lost

puppy love....?

[02:58]: and they called them... puppy glooooveees
[02:59]: but i guess they'll never know... how a warm hand really feeeeeels
[02:59]: and thats why i loved them soooooo

showing emotion

Ever been laughed at when stating the situation makes you angry?

'If that is your angry face i think i'll be fine' ;)

Hmm, lack of importance given to the feeling because it is not seen?