Social

Just ugh really.

I get it. When it comes down to it, for most people, I’m a rather shit friend. Disappearing for months/years and missing those all important events that reinforce the bond. Being familiar with all those ‘do you remember when’s. But it doesn’t mean I love them any less.

I know I’m over sensitive when it comes to rejection; I can has abandonment issues kk. But tis not all that difficult to just say ‘I’d rather we didn’t talk anymore’. I’d certainly prefer it to stewing over my potential status as unwanted person who just won’t take a hint. Certainly a worry considering how awful I can be at deciphering social cues.
Meh.
I shall bravely flounder on, banging my head against disinterest until it dissipates or bangs back.


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Feb 12

Huh. Social skills, my forte.
Life is good till it gets in the way
Understanding your wisdom
A game that we play
Multiple endings; chase a new day.

Not sure of your ending. the part you shall play.
this missunderstanding i fear is our shame.

Trying to flounder
thoughts cast assunder
i know not the issue

But hell. I'll miss you.

itsumo x

Drift

"I want to live alone
because the greatest love is always ruined by the bickering,
the argument of living."

Really?

At once this resonates yet I don't wish to believe it as truth.
To live at such a distance as the 'argument of living' is not dealt with together then.. what is the point?

I would rather drift alone than only have the eddies [moved/disturbed/influenced]; to be together is to mingle the dust and blow [together/in concert/simultaneously]

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Feb 12

Within formless shifting seas of fate.

 I can be hard
I can be soft
I am formless seas
Shaped by froth
Shaped yet lost
not all
not most
Shaped yet lost
Waves sculpting
Seagulls aloft
For joy I create
Tangled thoughts, grasped
Stained and sculpted
Taking form from the lost strands of mist.
Shaped yet lost
not all
not most
lost

puppy love....?

[02:58]: and they called them... puppy glooooveees
[02:59]: but i guess they'll never know... how a warm hand really feeeeeels
[02:59]: and thats why i loved them soooooo

showing emotion

Ever been laughed at when stating the situation makes you angry?

'If that is your angry face i think i'll be fine' ;)

Hmm, lack of importance given to the feeling because it is not seen?

Momentary perception.

Musings that really made sense at the time

The point of insanity is not wondering if your vision is shifting because reality itself is moving and not just your perception; it is believing it. [as fact not possibility]

What if the situation appeared that the observation was true?

Further evidence necessary.

Fragments of thoughts

In love, always be yourself. Stray too far from that path and one day you'll wake up to find your partner really loves another.

Chicken soup for the soul

I came across this phrase a while ago and have been pondering it. What, for me, makes everything seem a little bit better?

Fruits Basket
Good conversation with a friend